awareness

Spent most of today with Kismet and it popped into my head that in a month she will be 2 years old.

I've never spent so much time with a living thing before.

Every day I got to see her grow, learn and take in this world.

Every day I got to grow, learn from her and see a world through her eyes.

Quite often I think I am a damn tyrant the way I have raised her. It's not easy being around me... that is something I know for sure.

But today I'm not going to be a grouch and took her to the beach and let her splash around.

let her splash around...

She loves the water. Loves to swim. When she lost sight of the stick I threw and just motored around in circles, well I couldn't help but crack a smile and laugh at how silly she is.

crack a smile and laugh...

Yes.
It was a wonderful feeling.

She came into my life and saved me.

This is something I won't deny as it is true.
This puppy is teaching me more about compassion, empathy, patience and love than any human I have met.
Guess that's not saying much about the human race.

I've been stuck wondering "what the fuck is going on?" and focusing on all the wrong things.
I drifted out of alignment.
Then I just floated around.

just floated around...

Yeah. Adrift. Like a piece of driftwood.

But today Kismet taught me something new.

When you lose sight of the target... you keep moving!

Can't find the target? Come back, reset and go after another one.

What did I do? I lost sight of the target and just got discouraged. And stopped moving.

Just stopped moving.
Fighting to stay afloat.
Running on fumes going nowhere.

All I had to do was let go.
Damn Control.
Old habits do die hard.

Reset.
Instead of focusing on what is not happening.
Focus on what is.

Go after a new target.
Move back into flow.
Can't make magic when I'm stuck.

awareness, choice, different results...

I know.

Time for different results.

#chasingbutterflies