choosing me

Yesterday I woke to a sky of grey, last night I finally decided to let go of my old self, of my past.

Today I wake to a sky of blue, a new beginning. I know that I will be tested an retested to check my resolve, old behaviors die hard but this is what I want.

Moving forward I need to cleanse and detoxify my body and mind. This includes the silent addiction to social media, how quickly I fell into its vicious grip.

Constantly checking, liking, checking, liking, this need for acknowledgement which is only a fleeting moment as it is quickly overwritten by the next post, the next "like". This cycle never ends. The tentacles of addiction grips tighter and tighter.

I remember when I never had one of these accounts and people laughed, told me what I was missing out on.

I only realize now that I was missing out on nothing.

What was I doing back then with my time? Before I started caring what everyone else was doing?

Right... I was living MY life.

I have made a decision to stand up for me, to honor me, to choose me above anyone else. So I take back this precious time to start healing. To reclaim my power.

I fell down hard on Friday and it took a few days to recover, but I have learned from it. Finally. That event loop can end.

Now I pick myself up, grit my teeth and have fire in my eyes as I continue the walk down my path.

#chasingbutterflies