gross sales

In 2020 we take care of all the ticketing for VoiceStory events in house again, so I figured out how to automate the task of updating the mailing list.

Then my curiosity got the better of me and I decided to browse the past events since the relaunch on January 2018.

It was only two years ago when I decided to take the mic back and do the show aligned with my vision.

I look at the number that is displayed on my screen and as I blink, I feel a bit numb.

"Gross sales = $48.00"

That was only two years ago.

As I click on February, March... April.
The sales doubled!
WOOHOO!

I don't remember much from back then, as so much has happened since that moment in time.

I close my eyes and reflect on this.
As I stare at those numbers my brain tries to make sense of it all.
Of what I was thinking back then.

I remind myself that matters of the heart often make no logical sense.
I wasn't thinking.
I was feeling.

And it felt right.
So I did.
Then continued to do.

Based off nothing more than a feeling.
Sometimes of gratitude.
Other times of fulfillment.

I click through the months of May, June and July and I see the numbers. I choose not to share them with you, but I will share that I felt something pluck my heartstrings.

I go back and see.
I go back and feel.
I go back and believe.

That was only two years ago.

So much trust in the vision.
I've learned a lot since then.
I've changed a lot since then.

Looking back... I now see that thread which used to be invisible to me, which wove all of my stories together.
It is so clear now.
So very clear.

I could have quit.
But I didn't.
My brain tells me I should have quit.
But I didn't.
The whispers tell me I should have listened to them.
But I didn't.

As I sit here and type this, the only words that echo in my head are "Why not?!?"

Because it felt right.

And that is all I, or anyone, needs to understand.

#chasingbutterflies