happy birthday to me

72 hours ago I made this statement: “On October 10, 2022 I do not want to be where I am now!”

I felt a surge of fire within that galvanized these words into purpose.

as my birthday came and went, part of me reflected upon my words… my position.

I came to realize that I focus a lot on things that didn’t happen.

a lot on things that didn’t happen…

yeah. it’s an old behaviour.

I closed my eyes and scanned over moments from this past year of my life.

of new friends I made
of new places I got to see
of old stories I dismantled
of people I guided to clarity
of the silly moments with Kismet
of sitting on a dock watching the sunset
of hearing the scream of my motorcycle
of all the times I said “YES” to an oppourtunity
of…

so many moments I am so grateful to have experienced.

I’ll admit nothing comes without a price.
while I was out living life, I wasn’t working.
I have been conditioned to weight one as “wrong” and the other “right”.

I feel this.
so I edit my statement.
I shift its perspective.

because it is not wrong to want to live.

#chasingbutterflies