letting go

what if you are only meant to do that one thing you are being called to do?

and not meant to do any of those things you are thinking of...

no coaching

no mentoring

no speaking

no conferences

no workshops

no books

no podcasts

none of what you see everyone else is doing...

if you understand this then what happens next?

I don't know which of you was speaking, but I heard you loud and clear.

I've been stuck in paralysis for a while now, struggling to figure out what to do to get out of it.

only now to understand that "trying to figure out what to do" is the cause of it.

I hear you.

hear you...

I do!

what you shared with me calmed the noise storm in my head.

made me reflect on my life and how I got to this moment,

then some sage words from Feather echoed back to me...

what could your life be like, if you let go of what you think your life should be like?

then I became aware of the trap.

a trap that embraced me like a warm blanket

a trap that slowly swallowed me like quicksand

a trap that I created

again.

chasing after a fantasy version of myself, then the harsh judgement only I can dish out when I stumble and fail.

comparing myself to what others are doing, then the harsh criticism only I can dish out when I don't achieve success.

judgement,

criticism,

guilt,

shame.

all the familiar players that do the slow drip on my forehead to make me submit to the conditioning.

but what if I let go of what I think my life should be like again?

again...

yeah.

did it 4 years ago when Feather posed the question

and life unfolded in unimaginable ways,

I remember saying

"I never would have believed my life would be like this!"

old behaviours got me stuck again.

stuck again...

yeah.

time to let go.

#chasingbutterflies