madness

I’ve jumped down many a rabbit hole before.

last night a did another 3 hour sensory deprivation float, but this jump shook me.

I experienced echoes of consciousness that weren’t mine.

moments of suffering, pain, torment, abuse inflicted by those in power upon another.

to make them cry
to make them scream
to make them submit

Cruelty
Insanity
Malice

these are just some of the words I grasp to describe the oppressor.

In the darkness I let out a silent scream as I felt myself being bent, stepped on and twisted.

as one echo passed, another one would come.

these aren’t my memories.
these aren’t my experiences.
but they had to have come from somewhere!

I eventually crawled out of the tank
turned on the shower
to wash this evil off my skin.

I stood there feeling the water flow over me...

HOLY SHIT
is all I could whisper
as I came to realize

I was just given a glimpse into the madness of man.

#chasingbutterflies