mental health

It’s been a roller coaster of a week.

On October 19 I was in Toronto to take in the Archangel Summit and going around connecting with people, sharing my gift and having impact.

A few days later when I return home I ask myself “what the hell are you doing with your life?” and this compounded this past weekend when I scrolled through people’s highlight reels on social media. Throw in a dash of some other bad news and I have a recipe for a fast slide down into a dark hole.

Last night, October 27, was the VoiceStory Live show on Mental Health and to open the show I chose to be vulnerable and express to the audience that I was not OK, that I was aware of the narratives that were happening in my mind and chose to not engage with them in order to host the show.

It’s like knowing that the washing machine running in the background and choosing not to engage with the noise. It’s hard as the critic inside me never shuts up.

I understand that this is yet another test of my resolve. Of how committed am I to do what I am called to do.

In video game terms... I am nearing the end of level 3 and nearing the start of level 4. I forget that each level only gets harder, it never gets easier. Unless I want to give up and quit.

As I have these thoughts I get an email notification. It is a message from my sister and after reading it I grit my teeth, pick myself up and keep moving forward.

#nevergiveup #mentalhealth #voicestory #lovesharegrow

Hey, you!

This weekend, BC Hockey encouraged all teams to recognize mental health awareness and support by participating in the Buddy Check movement. This movement was created by a coach who lost his 19yr old son to suicide. Yesterday afternoon, Jamie's team and the opposing team donned green laces and green jerseys, then stood in solidarity at centre ice to show their support.

Last night, Jamie learned that via Instagram that a former ball hockey teammate and school mate took his own life yesterday. Seamus just turned 16. We knew him and his family. Needless to say, tough morning...

Just wanted to tell you how proud and thankful I am of you and of people like you for bringing awareness to those who feel that their voice doesn't matter.

Love C.