the lesson keeps repeating

Partied all night, got only 4 hours of sleep as I chose to not skip my Saturday morning workout, so I dragged my hungover ass to the gym and limped through it. I was definitely hurting.

When I got home and sat on the sofa, I passed out cold for a few hours. I guess this is how my body is telling me it isn’t compatible with my old lifestyle, that environment, the heavy drinking and lack of sleep anymore.

I love music and dancing but when I was at the venue I just didn’t feel comfortable. The reason I gave myself was "it's a birthday party and I want to catch up with other old friends I haven’t seen in a while" so I decided to stay and have a drink vs. listening to my body and leave.

Now I understand that not listening to your intuition and ignoring all of the signals your body is giving you to "get the fuck out of there", is the fastest way to dishonour yourself and give away your power.

And all this happens with that single decision you make in a blink of an eye inside your head.

Awareness->choice->different results

The last month has been a repetitive cycle of the same scenario, but with different people.

I acknowledge to myself that I chose poorly. I also understand that I didn't ask myself what my intention was going to this event, I didn't setup my boundaries beforehand. I'm learning.

I’m getting to the point where I am finally seeing and accepting that holding onto my past is just holding me back. Time to let it go.

Now to pick myself back up and keep moving forward.

#chasingbutterflies