the real lesson

Time is truly an illusion as it was only yesterday that I learned something from "falling down" and yet it feels like so long ago.

And then this morning I was quickly tested again.

I was awake for maybe 5 minutes, when I received the email with a reply that what I applied for was declined.

I know how my old self would have taken this bad news. The dysfunctional beliefs that festered in my mind would have quickly made this decision mean something about me. How I was the cause for this happening, how I deserved this outcome, then I would withdraw from the world and put on a smiling mask for all to see.

this is how it always plays out...

With my realization from last night fresh in my head, I chose to not let this bad news take over and dictate how my day was going to be!

I consciously chose to not give this moment any more time and space... but I could feel old emotions and behaviours stir inside of me.

awareness -> choice -> different results...

Their decision does not reflect on me as a person.
Their decision does not mean all options are lost.
Their decision does not mean a positive outcome is not possible.

their decision is just a moment in time...

I choose to let this moment fade into eternity.
I choose to keep my power.
I choose to create a different ending.

#chasingbutterflies