with every ending, there is a new beginning

Social media reminds me of where I was a year ago today, as I was franticly getting the condo painted so I could wake up in 2017 back in downtown Vancouver.

I went into 2017 knowing what I didn't want, but I had no idea what I did want.

Now as I type this, I realize I have been asked this many, many times from various people this past year as I hear their voices echo in my mind.

what do you want?

is this what you want?

As this year unfolded I learned a lot about myself, what I was blind to and what I needed to understand.

I learned about compassion, empathy, judgement, fear, courage, forgiveness, love and most importantly self-love.

Then things began to shift as I became more aware, my world began to change and not in my wildest dreams could I imagine I would be who I am now, where I am now.

Now I understand the beauty of letting go of control, of letting go of how one wants the story to play out.

yes... you are a recovering control freak...

When you let go of your idea of how your story is supposed to be, then infinite possibilities are available to you.

As I reflect back to give some examples, my jaw drops in awe of how much has happened to me... I have found people I can call my tribe, I've experienced things words just cannot describe, I have a beautiful puppy, I am happy!

We are happy...

These three words alone would be the highlight of my year.

2016 - I forgave myself.

2017 - I found myself and was awoken.

2018 - I will unfold my wings and fly!

I dare to dream! I dare to be!

#chasingbutterflies